First and foremost, my motivation here is not to claim I’m an expert in anything. Simply to be a fellow student in life, to share those things that I believe are medicine, and to create a place for sharing pieces of our human experience. There will be parts of my story — a journey in healing, stepping into my power, & becoming the best and most genuine version of myself. It’s a long journey and it’s far from over, but I’m here for it. There will be ramblings, creations, information, inspiration, and more. That’s the vision I have for Seeds & Spells at this time. I have no doubt that it will evolve, shift, and grow just as I do. As a recovering perfectionist, I have made the choice to stop sitting around and waiting for this idea to ‘become perfect’, and to see it as perfect right now, giving it (and myself) permission to change and adjust.

Origins.

Growing up, nature was my first church. When I was young, I clearly remember a moment of walking through the woods behind my childhood home with my mother. As the light danced through the tree canopy above us, I asked her why we didn’t ‘go to church on Sundays like everybody else’. She took this opportunity to teach me that there are other ways to be thankful, to pray & express gratitude for all that we have in this life. This moment shaped me and planted a seed that would grow to become my deep love, respect, & desire for connection with the natural world. Nature became the place where I sought respite, went for answers; the place where I went to connect with something bigger and higher than myself. This moment also taught me that prayer doesn’t have to look a certain way or be to a certain entity. It took me 20-some years to come to terms with the fact that my prayer does not happen on my knees and it isn’t to ‘God’ as some might envision that. It happens through movement. During those moments, I feel truly connected to something much greater than myself.

Movement. Nourishment. Empowerment.

For so many years, I struggled with trauma experienced in my early years and young adult life. Speaking my truth, allowing this experience to live somewhere outside the depths of my being and pits of my stomach, for the first time felt so freeing. In growth and healing, we often over correct. In this instance I found myself clinging to that narrative. Identifying as the things that happened to me, rather than experiences I lived through. I lived in this place of victimhood for some time. I was ready to leave when I was ready. Through movement, & nourishment, I was able to heal and move to a place of empowerment. I still struggle with not knowing how to use my voice when it isn’t telling that particular story.

But, this is a place where I’m giving myself permission to use my voice and validate my knowledge & experiences. I encourage you to give yourself that same permission. We are all experts in something, and you don’t need a degree or other piece of paper in order to have something valuable to share with the world.

I’m so happy that you are here and I hope you are too. Whether you came here on accident or with intention, I hope that you walk away with something new. I look forward to interacting with fellow human beans here digitally, or perhaps, if we are lucky, our paths cross live and in-person.

Welcome to Seeds & Spells

With Love,

The Girl Who Sleeps Under The Stars